long wind
I think it's really funny how much I enjoy having this little outlet, especially acknowledging the fact that no one on Earth know about it but me! And I love that fact!
I have quite a busy day coming up today, and I need to get into it, so this can't take long. I'll get to the point ... I'm a little nervous about the next step. Is my time in this corner of the world at an end? Is it time to move home? If I leave now, do I have a good reason, the right reason? Would I be leaving in the right spirit? Am I angry, or is it just a little confusion? How many of these questions are really important? Am I too hard on myself? What does God truly expect of me?
It's hard to work when I'm alone in the office with boring tasks ahead of me, and so many difficult questions rotting away in my mind. I feel like they've been there so long I can almost smell them deteriorating. Maybe if I ignore them a bit longer they'll decompse completely and be gone. Probably they'll just fester and start a new infection, instead. And I do know the answer ... surrender them to God. I wish it was as easy as it seems.
Right. Time for work.
I have quite a busy day coming up today, and I need to get into it, so this can't take long. I'll get to the point ... I'm a little nervous about the next step. Is my time in this corner of the world at an end? Is it time to move home? If I leave now, do I have a good reason, the right reason? Would I be leaving in the right spirit? Am I angry, or is it just a little confusion? How many of these questions are really important? Am I too hard on myself? What does God truly expect of me?
It's hard to work when I'm alone in the office with boring tasks ahead of me, and so many difficult questions rotting away in my mind. I feel like they've been there so long I can almost smell them deteriorating. Maybe if I ignore them a bit longer they'll decompse completely and be gone. Probably they'll just fester and start a new infection, instead. And I do know the answer ... surrender them to God. I wish it was as easy as it seems.
Right. Time for work.
posted by Simon at 9:32 AM
2 Comments:
i think you are doing just fine in life Simon...and i know that God will lead you where you are supposed to go. i wish you all the best!
Hey...
I guess I sorta found "the queue" by accident. And i thank you for sharing your thoughts with the world. Please don't quit - it's awesome. You have a really awesome gift of being authentic and also incredibly encouraging at the same time.
I will be praying for God's awesome will in your life.
ps don't be afraid to check out my lil blog and comment anytime!!
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